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TIRED. BURNT OUT. 

I NEED STRENGTH.

i need the will power to continue. going home at 2am every day is not exactly the most pleasurable.

taxi driver: "wah, girl, you always work so late?"

me: "ya"

taxi driver: "Now's 2am, by the time you sleep, it'd be 3am...what time do you hafta get up?"

me:"i get to work around 9.30am"

taxi driver: "whoa. you have like 4 hours of sleep only?? every day?"

me: "ya"

taxi driver: "so does the company give you benefits for working late?"

me: "i can claim my taxi fares?"

taxi driver: "wahhh...."very" good hor??" (filled with sarcasm)

depressed.

i feel really sick and tired.

sometimes i think whether it's cause i'm slow and my technical knowledge is just bad...why am i taking so long to complete my work...

every day that i review my work progress report...i feel like i am tumbling down a never ending spiral...at the end is nothing but a big black wormhole waiting to consume me...and i just feel so incredibly stressed to the point of tears.

am i lazy?

 if wanting to take a break, to work a 9-5 job and have minimal responsibility is considered being lazy, then well... i am ashamed to admit but i'd much rather be "lazy".


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Philippians 4:13

I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

Hebrews 6:12

So that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.


Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.