hopeless and bored

i am hopeless and BORED.

despite...

having 3 quizzes, 1 essay assignment & 1 korean oral presentation

yet

i wasted my time...

playing with my DSLR.

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conclusion:

i still suck at manual functions. aperture and shutter speed.

and

most importantly,

i HAVE GOTTA go study for my quiz

NOW

oh.

and i wanted to blog about this. gosh. this is the craziest thing ever.

seriously.

wth.

and it cost 3000bucks...

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updates:

met jo for lunch today! FINALLY tried can A's fantastic avocado milkshake! pure heavens! can't wait for flea.fly.flo.fun! me, jo, sarah and 3 others will be going down for the event! should be tons of fun selling all our ol' stuff! Gals! if u're free,do come down on the 25th oct to singapore conference hall! Check out all the second hand stuff and brand new apparels that we will be selling as well as the other sellers'!

Also, just arranged for a business trip to vietnam this december, gonna check out the business propects there, will be checking out companies in ho chin min, the capital of vietnam and depending on the itinery, we might go to other capitals too....addy called me along, sounds interesting, i'm looking forward to the trip.

and then there's another issue, should i sign up for work and travel usa?!! beat asked me if i'm going corz the deadline is 3rd of oct!! so little time left to decide! i think i might not go in the end though, may just decide to travel usa, without working. lolx.

hey. i realised i haven't been blogging much lately. especially since it's recess brk! no excuses there. i had my wisdom tooth surgery. super ouchy. my mouth was swollen like a crazy golfball just grew out the right side of my mouth ( fyi i extracted the bottom right wisdom tooth). and that's after taking anti-swelling pills!

CAN U IMAGINE WHAT I WOULD LOOK LIKE IF I DIDN'T TAKE THE PILL???!! (okay, on second note, this sounds really wrong, i don't mean the pill as in THE pill, i mean the pill as in the pills, k, watever, u get what i mean)

A freaking bloated, inflated puffer fish!

as if my face wasn't round and fat enough :s

i once told my hairdresser that my face looked like a mooncake corz it was soooo round. and she simply laughed it off. i would have appreciated some consolation there, like maybe "Haha, no lar, you're face is not that round lar. i've seen rounder faces. don't be so self-deprecating." but no, i didn't get a word of comfort or reassurance, i just got a "HAHahahaha".

the nerve of that lady.

anyway, i went to malacca this recess break! it was a food-ful holiday trip! we practically ate 5-6 meals a day!!! it was crazy. like there was once, we could eat chicken rice balls, wu xiang for breakfast and half an hour later, we would head down to eat porridge!! omg. but i loved the satay thingie that we had on the first night! super D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S! we basically dipped whatever we wanted into the satay-like sauce. the boss was soo kind to even gave us generous portions of big fresh prawns, tiger prawn and abalone!! FOC!

wah. uncle must make a lot of money from his satay business! maybe i should start a satay business in singapore too! lolx, maybe i'll earn enough to drive a ferrari in 2-3years time! heck accounting. heck taxation. heck banks (not such a gd option given that all the investment banks are closing down). satay is the way to go!




anyway, we stayed at ching seng's place, he was very nice to have offered his place for us to stay for the 4days that we were there! he brought us to eat lotsa stuff. malacca is also famous for its chendol. i'm not that much of a chendol person cause i don't like coconut milk that much (i like tutu kuei, i like bengawan solo kuei, but i don't like coconut in liquid form, yes, i know, i am a very fussy eater, so sue me). But i must say,the chendol in malacca is prettay good actually, the syrup isn't like singapore's, where they basically use some weird colouring liquid, malacca's chendol is thick brown and very very sweet, great for those with a sweet tooth!

man. i sound like a food blogger already. all i've been talking about is food. food. food.

i rode on a ferris wheel, sat on a pirate ship, bicycled around malacca old town on a trishaw(okay, not exactly bicycled, the poor 65 year old trishaw-ist cycled while me and myrna sat back and relaxed, lolx) and that's when we saw ou xuan!! she was filming there!! haha, maybe we'll appear in the next drama that she's filming as the FOC calefare -_-"

Oh, oh! And i must bitch about the dirty old trishaw man, that one really lao ji kou pei! he has 2 wives, the first wife has 12 children and the other has like 4 children! a grand total of 16 children, the youngest being 1 years old! AND the most amazing part is, his second wife is like 24yrs old la! that is damn sick. i am okay with malays having more than one spouse, i understand that it's common and probably a culture for them, no arguments there. but come on la! 24 years old?!! she's young enough to be ur grand daughter!! and he still plans on getting a third wife! Then what?! 18years old??! *faints*




THE FERRIS WHEEL!!!! although it doesn't look like one here...hurhur. And there's the trishaw on the right hand pic, haha, look who's riding?! Yes. we decided to steal and ride off with
the ol' man's trishaw! muhahaha.


and cause it was just after mooncake festival, there were lanterns on display.and they were all sooo pretty and innovative! they were made of recyced materials, like egg trays, glass bottles, plastic cups, can drinks and all sorts of everyday items! amazing. makes me wanna go all D.I.Y and make a toilet paper lantern for myself! now if only i could make it hold...


Picture post! Let the pictures do the talking...


these were taken in some hotel there....








A'hem, lw acting all emo or L-ish from Death Note.

these were taken at gu chen aka old town, it's very portugese influenced as you can see from all the red buildings!

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FAVE SNAPSHOT OF THE LOT!


this is my fave pic of all the hundreds and thousands of photos we took (i'm exaggerating, no, not the part abt it being my fave pic, the part abt the hundreds and thousands of photo taken, duh!). there's just something nostalgic about red doors and it's with one of my fave person, MYRNA darling!

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i was doing my best impersonation of the main character in Blood + anime! RAWR!! damn scary looking indeed. kendo sword vs dagger, who will win??

and then at W.I.N.D.S cafe - cafe for live music (see below). awesome-ness. my kinda place. i love places where i can just sit back, relax and listen to live acoustic sets. and the male singer was great and very soul-ful, i don't know what chinese song he sang though, my memory for all things chinese is very very limited. 11 years of learning chinese and you would have thought the education system would have enforced some cheena-ness in me and made me abit more proficient in the language...*sheepish*

....and that's me drinking the strawberry rhythm mocktail mix that was filled with strawberries(yum yum) but too sweet for even a sweet-toothed person like me! no wonder my smile looks a bit forced. haha.


MORE FOOD and MORE CAM-WHORING!

yay!! my dream car, i like OLD cars, the older, the crankier, the better! best if all it's parts are falling off, it'd be so damn cool to ride it along the streets of Orchard Road. imagine all the weird stares i'll get. cool.

as for the picture on the right, super ghostly right? scared the hell outta me too. we look like zombies, outta some freaky "28 weeks later" -ish movie.

END OF TRIP SHOT!!

the end.

that's cause blogspot is crapping out on me and it's too bloody slow, which is evidently pissing me off to the max. so that's the end of my entry on malacca.

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on a side note, i finally got the UO MOTO JACKET that i've been deliberating on for the longest time!! Can't wait till they ship it over!

For a sneak peak

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totally alexanda wang-ish. my latest designer obsession.

other than marc jacobs of course.

i've been going for recruitment talks, career talks and alumni talks these past week. grrr. it is so stressful now cause everyone is proactively searching for jobs. everywhere i hear names of companies....goldman sachs, mackenzie, HSBC, credit sussie (sorry, i have no idea how to spell it, as much as i know how wrond it sounds now, please don't sue me if you're employed there), kpmg, ernst & young, bdo, bcg, shell, p&g, dbs.........................etc.etc.etc.

After going for all the talks and networking sessions, i feel a lil' more inspired to start applying for jobs too...start thinking of what to say during interviews, of what leadership roles i've taken and all. the thing is, and the most crucial point......i don't even know what i want to work as!! SO HOW DO I APPLY FOR A JOB WHEN I HAVE NO CLUE?!!

right now, i think i want to go into tax, but it's not certain, i think i like it so far but who know's if i'm suitable for the job of a tax specialist. am i being too restrictive to simply base everything on my previous internship? just cause i was in the tax department, i want to go back to doing tax. am i simply choosing the easy way out, the safer choice because i don't dare to try something else??


i feel that i am in a way seeking for the safest path. after being in uni for so long, i realise that there's so many more capable people out there and sometimes i just feel that i can't compete with them and i don't want to compete with them, i feel like i don't have the ability to apply for something BIGGER and more ambitious. maybe that's why i chose not to enter banks...argh. am i being an escapist??

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anyway, i'm gonna do a 360degrees change in topic now. yar. anti-climax i know. hurhur.

gonna post pictures of my mami's birthday celebration ytd! I went to cdans to study with jade darling and after which i went to buy angie the choice durian ice-cream cake for my dear mami! My sis and I planned a tiny surprise for her.

I hid the cake in the freezer. Accidentally, leaving the box in the kitchen. And my dad had to spoil the whole surprise by asking very loudly, "Oei, who put this box here? why u all buy cake arhz?!"

OMG. FAINTS.

My mum having heard him, walked into the kitchen, saw the box and asked, "why you all buy angie the choice?", she then opened the freezer and saw the cake and said, "Who's the cake for? Me arhz?"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so furious la.

so i had to lie through my teeth... ...

"Aiya, no lar, who wanna buy for you cake? it's for my friend, don't touch!"

lolx.

but then, i think she didn't believe me...she replied a while later, "So when can i eat my cake?"

irritating.

so we celebrated before 12am, meaning it wasn't even officially her birthday yet -_-" all the result of my daddy's big mouth, my sis's impatience(she wanted to pass her gift to my mum) and my greediness( i wanted to eat the cake already, haha).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMI!!!

scared.

i'm taking a break from the pile of work that i have...

Just visited my ah ma today, the doctor and nurse from the hospice care came to check on her this morning...

i know she doesn't have much time left ever since we found out she was diagnosed with cancer...

But it never really hit me until now, she's been in and out of hospital, she's looking so much thinner and haggard these days, she looks so different from the plump(in a fortunate sorta way), happy and healthy looking ah ma i used to know....

I'm ashamed of myself for not caring enough before. It had to take an outsider's words before i really felt the impact of this dreadful illness. The doctors said she doesn't have much time left.

I'm scared.

I've never been exactly very close to her but i know she loves all of us very much, she loves my mum, my auntie and uncles and all her grand children alot. And it shows. She prayed for me and asked God to take care of me while i was in the car accident that nearly took my life.

she'll cook for all of us curry chicken, one of her specialties, whenever we have large family gatherings. And she'd come to visit me as soon as i got back from Canada. She was there for each one of us every single time. I remember when i was young, she'd bring food when she visited us.

I can feel that time is running short on her, everyone is making an effort to visit as often as they can. Even my aunt from abroad has taken leave to visit her. We try to make sure she has a more comfortable time. My aunt got for her bird's nest and a new pillow. And we try to let her eat good food (not too much though, corz it might aggravate her liver). We even talk about having a family portrait. You can sense that everyone is trying to salvage precious time. It's almost depressing. I have this overwhelming dread in my heart which makes me fear each passing day, something might happen.

I want to do what i can now before it's too late. i'm just frustrated that i can't express in words how i feel cause i can't speak teochew very much. and i am also angry at my siblings for being so uncaring and not bothering to spend more time with their grandmother.

they probably don't know how ah ma took care of them corz they were too young but shouldn't they at least try to show some care and concern.

it makes me angry thinking abt it.