save me

i am drowning in my own self-pity.



why the heck did i think i could manage all these...it's depriving me of my sleep.



i absolutely hate hate HATE AC313!!!!



it was supposed to make me love tax even more, but now i'm actually fearful of every tax lesson.



gasp. i'm presenting every single week, and the cases i have to read are no easy feat, 66 pages! and my report is such a disgusting piece of assignment, i wish i could just throw it in the bin and forgo the 20% because it is soooo not worth the effort. how am i going to manage! Oh God, please find a way for me to make it through!



please, just kill me now. i don't think i could handle



why. why. why. WHY!!!!

picnic by the lake

we went to celebrate mich's 22nd birthday at....BOTANIC GARDENS! haha, yes, again. we're getting quite unoriginal, lol, but it's really very nice there, and every visit always seems different. And this time we went there for a night time picnic! Refreshing and a pleasant change from the usual restaurant hangout :)


The Wackos! (hehe, jie shan looks so cute here!)

Vien helping to scoop up the pasta that she made, or rather...her maid made, lolx! There's was sooo much pasta, we couldn't finish it, but it was pretty yummy :) our main food was jap though, as usual, we are alwaz eating jap food! you know what, i think we shld just name ourselves the jap foodies! hahaha.

See all the sushi and handrolls!!! and the yummy scallops! and seaweed chicken! Japanese Fiesta!

Bestie with her big toothy grin!! And u're soooo skinny! i'm soooo envious!


and our very special replacement cake, J.CO DONUTS!! guess what we used as candles?

FIRE SPARKLERS!!!

Haha, our birthday girl was terrified, cause the sparkles were bursting in flames all over. not such a good idea though. the donuts were filled with black colour ashes :(

And our pretty mich with her birthday present and omg, is jess threathening to light it in flames??!! Horrors!

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met up with wp, jon & addy to discuss our grad trip yesterday. ended up talking instead of discussing much. and i finally managed to try ah chew's dessert with wp at bugis!!! not fantastic though, the black sesame paste tasted kinda bland and the yam sago turned out to be buboh char char, haha. hmm, maybe i set too high expectations for the place after hearing so many good comments about the place! it was average only. but i was surprised to find that it was a air-conditioned nice cafe, i was expecting to see a lau pok coffee shop, haha. maybe cause of the name......haha.

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THE PASTA SHOP @ TIONG BAHRU PLAZA

i finally met up with my longest longest friend ever, i've known her since i was little, you could say she's like my childhood friend. We've watched each other grow up, from primary school till university and soon we'll be graduating and entering the working world, making our mark in society :) it's so nice to see Beat again after like soooo many months! it's like we never get the time to meet up with each other and every time i see her, the few hours is precious cause i don't know how many more months it'd be before we meet up again!

Posing with our pastas! Beat's carbonara and my chilli soft shell crab pasta!

we had sooo much to catch up on, we talked sooo much till the waitress came to bug us to pay up and we continued to talk some more till the shop closed. lolx.

"Toilet Whores"

john's birthday

OMG. i just drove on my own! for the first time ever!

(only to bkt panjang though, haha....but it's progress! Soon enough, maybe they'd let me drive to further places!)

it was such a nerve-wrecking experience though, i was sooo paranoid and extra careful while on the road.

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Anyways, here's pictures from john's birthday celebration today at suntec! tand dian wang, or whatever the restaurant was called! it was good but pricey :s

my lovely, pretty gals! intelligent addy & sociable stef! & me in the middle, who is not quite so intelligent nor sociable, haha.

and the bday man himself! (ahem, who was an hr late! lolx, but i was late too, so i've no right to complain here)

i absolutely adore stef's polka dotted jacket!!! and john's dapper vest & tie ensemble! if i looked more androgynous, i might wear the exact same outfit ;)

and i need to get a new phone!!! my phone is half-spoilt and the batt is super crappy from years of charging! Samsung sgh-f480 here i come! NEW PHONE!! not too excited about the money though... ...

Ages since i blogged!

yes, it feels like ages since i last blogged. oh well, there's not much to say anyway, life has resumed it's boring normality...

the ridiculously huge toy is invading my bed space! i'd hafta kick it off my bed in order to sleep!

but it's darn cute, no? love it's ridiculously big round head cause it looks like me! :)

anyway, vday was spent at my lil' nephew 1mth baby shower! Lil' benjamin is sooo tiny, i haven't seen such a tiny baby since....well, my sis was born. lolx. i love babies, their innocence and fragility and the way they resemble their parents. it's amazing and beyond comprehension how something so complex can come out of a mother's womb.

i would love to have a tiny infant that looks like me but i'm too self-centred and scared of giving birth that i don't think i ever want a child. So i'd just have to make do with playing with other people's chldren or..... kidnapping them.

i've gone off topic yet again. ahem, where was i? oh yar, baby shower. my cousin catered buffet for us and the food was yummy. i kept hogging the bubor cha cha, which i usually avoid cause i don't like coconut milk, but it was really good. Then there were the typical ang ku kuehs and red eggs that people have during baby showers...i wonder what's the meaning behind it? good fortune?? because i kinda relate red to fortune....like cai shen ye (god of fortune) who wears red and ang baos and red underwears??

and we and the other relatives watched "12 lotus" together. It's the local movie directed by royston tan. it's pretty good for a 99% hokkien show, i found myself actually liking the hokkien songs! *horrors* i thought it was a pretty good show depicting the tragic life of Ah Hua and the temporary presence of men in her life. everyone else thought otherwise. they were complaining that it was too boring but i like movies that are slow and realistic, there doesn't have to be a climax. I just felt that the whole story was well pieced together and the 12 chapters of Ah Hua's tragic life was well narrated.

i guess i just like boring shows.

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And guess what?! I just dyed my hair black!! omg. it's so black, i can hardly stand it, i haven't had black hair since sec2?? it feels so darn weird, i'm practically killing myself not to run to the nearest watson store to buy some DIY dye to dye it back. Initially, i wanted to add white highlights but they wanted to charge me a crazy 260+bucks. HELLO??!! i could go on vacation with that money!

but the service was good though, the hair stylist even better. lolx. a good-looker and quite a charmer too. it was money well spent. he helped to style our hair even after the cut so we walked out looking like tai tai with our well coiffed hair. but still...i want back my brown hair! oh gosh, i hope i last at least a week with my newly black hair.

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just had my mcq test today. i was sooooo on the verge of taking mc today, i was practically practising how to fake a headache instead of studying! in the end, i was sooo distracted, thinking about ways to fake illness that i didn't even finish studying and yet after soooo much thought going into "the art of feigning illness", i couldn't bring myself to lie to the doctor so i literally dragged myself to school for the dreaded test. i've had friends getting 1/10 for the paper and i've hrd horror stories abt it so i was really dreading it. and the worst part was that the prof. hinted to us to take mc as well!!

and the result? it was hard. but not a killer. so thank God i went and stopped being an escapist. i would hav felt even worse if i knew i could manage the paper and yet i didn't go for it so yay! a pat on my back! and Praise the Lord!

after which, i went to meet lilian for a congratulatory meal! haha, nah, just a small dinner and dessert. JI DE CHI in JP has quite a good range of desserts! i'm gonna hog that store whenever i go JP next time! i have such a sweet tooth!

yay! RECESS WEEK is coming in a few days time!!! HOLIDAY!!!! YESH!!! EVERYONE HOLLER!

(LW: i love these photos you took at botanic gardens!!)

PISSED OFF.

i have had enough. stupid project mates. i dedicate so much time and effort, i do so much. where's your gratitude! i promised to compile the powerpt slides, and i did. i put in 100%, no make that 110% on doing my work. just cause i took a nap and didn't reply ur calls and sms doesn't mean i'm not doing my work. it's VDAY, i have a life. just cause you didn't check to see your emails that i've already compiled the slides that some of you have done is not my problem. i did what i promised to do. am i supposed to dedicate 24hrs to you?!

argh.

i can't help it if some slacker of a group mate hasn't send in his slides and makes no constructive suggestions whatsoever. i'm not your mother. i am angry that i spent so much time doing up the slides and getting asked...

"Hey, why didn't you reply my calls?"

"I took a nap, i just got up."

"Did u receive my email in the afternoon?"

"yes. i did. i sent out the compiled files to ya all already. u didn't receive it??? it could be that there was error in sending. i'll send it again"

"when did you send?"

"errr, evening i think."

"hmm, then has xxx sent you his parts yet? have you compiled? corz yyy needs their pts to do his part."

"He hasn't sent yet, not since the last time i checked."

"When did u check?"

"In the evening."

"then what have u been doing the whole night????" (in a very accusatory manner may i add)(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

"I sent it out and i had my own things to do. and i took a nap for a while. i'm going to check now. i didn't reply ur calls and msgs cause i was slping." --> but i really just wanted to scream and say "am i supposed to be on 24hr stand by?!! can't i even take a nap?!!!"

argh. okay. i'm done venting my anger. i guess its just pent up frustration from feeling like i'm being used and that more than half the team aren't even bothered to do their work. thank goodness, the person who called still does his job. if it were someone else, i might have just cracked, released my fiery dragon claws and paw my claws through his guts.

wanted to blog on happier things but i'm not in the mood for it now.

busy.

met a few ppl this week for casual lunch and dinners. nothing much. i am starting to get more work! i need to manage my time well now. and with super slack proj grp mates, it means more work! grrr. makes me mad thinking about it.

MAD.

but on the brightside, i just spoke to jojo on fri!! Yay! I'm so glad to hear from her after 1 month!! and she's doing so much fun stuff like caving(real caving by the way, with the pro equipments and helmets and stuff!) and performing for the church in Atlanta! and she intro-ed me to some songs by this church fwen of her's who is super-duper cool. she writes her own songs and has a EP. and she's doing post-grad studies too. smart, sporty and musically-talented. hai~ makes me feel so inadequate all over again!

and ytd, i finally saw the kid with diploma in piano! he's in my sis cell and omg. his piano skills is soooo good. he managed to mix Jay Chou's song with Canon in D! how cool is that?! her entire cell group was crowding around him like some star. haha. i wished i had the perseverance to learn my piano to that kinda level. unfortunately i gave it up a long time ago. oh well. i'll just hafta settle for someone who will play the piano and serenade to me. hurhur.

speaking of which, V'Day is coming! Got a hot date yet? I've certainly got very hot date-lines to meet :S

i'll leave with some pics from my dinner date on fri :) i remember eating so full that night, i almost thought my stomach might burst from all the food. but island creamery was good!! i love home-made ice cream. if i ever had the ability to start a stall, i'd definitely wanna start an ice-cream stall so i can eat up all the leftover ice-cream. hurhur.

oh and elaine was really, really very nice, she went outta her way(took extra 2 buses and accompanied me walk through pools of water, soaking her shoes while walking) to pick me up from my busstop just cause i didn't haf any umbrella. just wanna say that i'm really touched and thanks sooo much! you know, i really think that whoever marries her will be one lucky man! she is one of the most caring and sacrificial people i know, i'll always aspire to be like her one day cause till now i'm still a selfish tweed. mayb i shall add that to my list of new year resolutions.haha. it's not too late.