a strange post

...because i'm kinda bored & way outta my mind from a 12 hrs slog, just let me daydream & live in a fairytale land till dawn breaks...

let's just say i get to live in a world entirely made out of my imagination...

MY WORLD WILL LOOK LIKE THIS...


with the wind in my face, the petals drifting in the air & the air musked in the sweet aroma of the scent of roses (or poppies in this case).

i'm ashamed to say that i like poppies. despite them being symbols of sleep and death. (bet you didn't know it's the state flower of California)

but that being said, i'm very BIG CITY GIRL.

there's only so much i can take of the countryside. before i strangle myself.

Hence, Tuscany shall remain but my holiday hideout. where the old world charms will give me peace & serenity. but my permenant home shall be in San Francisco.

...and my apartment will be such a mix-mash of colours, it'd look like it came straight from "Alice in Wonderland"

and the day will go by, just me sitting in my couch, reading a good book & sipping green tea. all cuddled up in a lover's embrace.

and LOVE will be like this...

[simply having someone who will hold your hand for the rest of your life]

and...
What do i wanna do when i'm 60, balding & barely walking?

i just want to ride a bicycle through a field of flowers with my 60 year old, balding & toothless partner.

i was told i dream too much...

see hello to...

SANDRA ALEXA NG

i thank God for my wonderful church mates & cg, they make church such a homely place to be in, a home filled with love & support.

and of course, i wanna thank the great one above, my father, my teacher, my friend. My ever-loving Christ. without Him, i am nothing. He gave me peace when there was none, He showed me that i can be useful & that there's so much more in store for me.

In Him, i am whole again. in Him, i have found the courage to move on, to strive for the Godly path & to live my life for the God-driven purpose.

Amen.

i'm back in action

whoa. haven't been blogging fr the longest time. i'd be surprise if anyone still reads my blog. lol.
anyway, it's definitely been a hectic month for me. what with work, meeting friends & the yada yada.

work has been great so far, colleagues have been awesome. we went to timbre recently and we also celebrated HJ's birthday. though there's one of my friend who's thinking of transferring to another department already, and it's ben barely a month :S i guess if you don't feel suited for a job, it's best to leave soon. but a month seems kinda fast...

my team had a new joiners/promoted staff dinner at Harry's where i got thoroughly wasted. after...1 pathetic pint of beer! my gosh. it was definitely embarrassing to say the least. we were quizzed on the company and i could barely answer the question cause my head was spinning and my vision was blurred. puked like 3 times that night, even a senior colleague was worried about me after he saw me puking outside the toilet. by the end of the night, after we left, HJ was like "Sandra, stop puking already!" lol.

i met up with a couple of friends recently, but one of the more special ones was with my choir mates, SQ & HP. it has been 6 years since i've seen them!!! can you imagine how i excited i was about meeting up! SQ was my senior back in secondary school, we have one common characteristic, guess what?? We're both small-eyed! so nice to now someone who has small eyes like mine too! someone who understands the pain of having to listen to repeatitive questions of "is your field of vision smaller? can you see that thing on your left/right?" HP, on the other hand, has BIG eyes & she was my fellow school mate of the same level. She's now teaching at kumon & taking so many additional enrichment classes. It's inspiring to see people so self-motivated.

We had dinner at Ashton's(i always thought it was some ATAS restaurant, but it turned out dirt cheap...apparantly the expensive one is Ashton Prime). It was wonderful meeting up with thes girls again!


HP, me & SQ!

Recently, caught "The Proposal" with A and it was hilarious. absolutely funny to the core. i love Sandra Bullock to bits. her movies are the funniest. period. sometimes, nothing beats feel good chick flicks. so far, i've watched quite a lot of movies, most of thm biographic or more of the indie kinda shows such as "coco chanel", "nick & norah's infinite playlist", "the grey gardens", etc. so it's nice to watch something that's more mainstream. and today, i caught "UP!" with lilian, myrna & gabriel. it was really touching & i understand why some people tear from this animatd flick. initially, i was like "what?! it's a cartoon, how can you cry from a cartoon?!" but now i understand, it's so sweet & the r/s between carl & the neckless boy is endearing :)

out of the blue...

i was doing my nightly jog when i chanced upon this...

i am thoroughly amazed at the weirdness of this world...

work & the yada yada

my workplace! the coolest corporate building in the cbd area.

it's been 3 weeks since i've started work. the first day was a complete utter HELL for me. it was stress at a whole new level and it was beyond bearable. staring at the huge file and the incredible stack of alien-looking documents for hours and hours without knowing how to go about looking for the needed information was scary. i hated the feeling of not knowing what to do and where to look. by the end of the day, i felt utterly and downright stupid. even though i was meeting my friends after work, it was hard to control the overwhelming and uncontrollable feelings inside. i broke down completely on the first day and quitting seemed like such a beautiful option.

of course, it's been weeks since the first day. and work has certainly picked up from there. because life can only go up once you've reached the lowest point. now that i've gotten the hang of things, i'm slowly appreciating my job and the challenges that come along with it. i always thought that work would be so much less stressful than studies because there's no exams. but work comes with a new set of stress and worries:

1. Time management and making sure that you work darn efficiently. because afterall, now we are essentially selling our time and expertise.

2. Making sure you check your work double, triple times so you don't make stupid mistakes

3. Multi-tasking. apart from your own set of work load, there's the huge amount of administrative and often irritaing things to clear. CHECK EMAIL CONSTANTLY.

4. office politics and making sure you don't offend anyone. and remember to be neutral about every thing. (of course, as a new joiner, i'm not really sensing the office politics yet but i do thread on broken egg shells everyday)

but life at work is not without fun. my buddies at work are awesome and we've already planned chill out sessions after work at timbre :) they are my source of joy and they are the pulling factor for me to go to work every single day. we chat on instant messaging, we sometimes go to the pantry to makan on the bisuits and drink milo, we disturb each other at the respective desks once in a while and we lunch together at so many different places. they are a funny and very helpful bunch. Especially my closest buddies Hazel & HJ, who work alongside me and as HJ says CBB(cover backside buddies)!

I truly think God placed them here(in my workplace) to help me through. I am absolutely certain that He has always been nothing but gracious and kind towards me because otherwise, i wouldn't have been so blessed in every aspect of my life. as i look back on all the difficult moments of my life, i don't recall a single time when i felt i was all in it alone. God placed "angels" in strategic places at certain points in time to assist me and guide me through.

God NEVER fails for he is jehovah jireh, my provider.

i love God and his church, the place i grew up and became more and more fond of, CHC!

with that, we just celebrated our 20th anniversary not long ago!

some pictures!

NDP 2009!!!!

Char, Alvin and i drove down to dempsey road to eat thai food at Twandang Microbrewery, a thai cuisine and German brewery. The food was so-so but $$. Guess when you go Dempsey, you're paying for the atmosphere. We met this 2 cool dudes there who were lost and wanted to get to The White Rabbit and so we gave them a ride down. the shorter dude was cute, but too bad he was wearing some latex, leather-ish looking pants that was positively shining in the dark and a very obvious signal that he must be gay. lol.

After which, we rushed down to the highway to view the fireworks up close and the view was fantastic!! Me & Char were going "wahhhh!!!!" every few seconds! hahaha. i felt so happy just seeing the fireworks. it's been a while since i've seen fireworks that close and it was such a gorgeous sight seeing the skyline lit in a burst of light.

We then headed down to Mt Faber , Emerald Lodge to eat desserts. Fantastic view too! we rode along the east coast area and got a mini tour around the east with our friendly guide, Alvin. lol.

It was a fantastic night with great sceneries and beautiful fireworks. loved it! Thanks char and alvin for the great company :)

Hangover movie!



caught this movie 2 weeks ago. super funny. one of the best comedies i've watched in a long while.

when wp first intro-ed me the movie, i was like...

"why did you change the movie from public enemies to hangover??!!! %$&&Y@"

"i read that the movie's very funny and got good ratings"

"But i wanna watch my JOHNNY DEPP!!!! %@$%!"

wasn't too happy about the last minute change of movie, but luckily it turned out good. so much better than i expected. so i was cool. lol.

EVERYONE, GO WATCH IT!! if it's still showing....haha.